[oshyn01]

Hi I just turned 22 and my the world seems totally different from what it used to be. I find myself having "attacks" that are followed by an action my attack can go one of two ways I sometimes get very sad and feel as if no one listens and I start to cry. I usually hold back tears until I am by myself I feel ashamed to cry in front of people so I hold it in until the "appropriate" time. This happens a lot when family church members or superiors on the job belittled me or don't listen when I'm trying to tell them I'm uncomfortable. The other outcome is rage I get mad and verbally lash out at people sometimes I do it and not realize it until its brought to my attention. Depending on who the person is I will apologize. If I find myself to keep lashing out I dismiss myself and disappear somewhere by myself. This usually happens when someone has upset me. I have recently gone through relationships where people don't take my feelings into consideration and they do what the want when ever they want I think years of letting people walk all over me has built up and I'm and exploding but I'm not a doctor should I bring this to my doctors attention? Am I having panic attacks? Am I depressed? What's wrong with me I wold love to go back to the happy person I once was how can I do that?

[redhed35]

If your feelings seem out of control or overwhelming the first stop is your doctor to rule out anything physically wrong.

You may benefit from some councilling to help you sort through your intense feelings and hopefully leave you feeling more in control.

My advice would be start with your doctor and take it from there.