Hopelessly in love with a married man!
I have been dating a married man now for a year... most of it has been long distance. We met last December, he was going through something's in his marriage. Actually, when we met his divorce was filed and he was going through with it. Well, he grew up in a very poor household.. raised by his mother and his father wasn't present. He has a son by his wife and vowed that his son will not grow up without his father... basically she uses the son against him and told him that he will never see his son again (so I think for him it's easier to keep her... I don't know). Anyway... we have everything in common, we have the same type of goals... and are both success driven alike... we are compatible in everyway imaginable. 2 months into our relationship I moved because of work, so it's been long distance. About 2 months ago, he was deployed to the middle east... he has told me on many occasions that he loved me. This is my delima... I'm also married, but been separated for almost 4 years now. I know in my heart of heart that this is wrong and even if he leaves her I would be somewhat of a rebound (which I don't want to be). But after being married myself for 8 years... I love this man more than I have ever loved anyone (keep in mind that he is not my normal pick of the litter either). But, I love everything hair on this man's body! In fear of getting hurt, part of me want to tell him that I can no longer do this, but he is deployed right now and if in fact he is truly in love with me I don't think that this would be the right time to tell him something like this... which I really want to let him know this. It's very hard for me to live day by day... he consumes 99% of my daily thought process... What should I do? Should I wait until he returns, which is about a year from now, just leave him alone, don't accept anymore emails or calls, or just let him know??
-Hopelesslynluv
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