Over the past year or so I've found myself having at least one drink a day. I enjoyed having a glass of wine or a beer with dinner or later on in the evening. Well, slowly, the number of drinks have increased and I can't seem to stop. I have one drink, and it feels so good to have that warm feeling that I find myself reaching for another ... and another. I don't usually get super drunk, but I like to have that buzzed feeling.
I'm afraid now, though, because I've tried to cut down. If there's any alcohol in the house (there almost always is), I will drink it even though I promise myself to take a break. Then I will promise myself just to have one drink, only to have more. I've taken the 'do you think you're an alcoholic' tests on the internet and failed. I'm afraid of what this could be doing to my body. I'm afraid of it getting worse. I just want some tips or ideas on how to stop or control my drinking.
The saddening part: I've PMed and otherwise checked... We haven't seen or heard from GoinDown for over two weeks. Frankly, I'm concerned. Anybody got any ideas??
You told us you'd hang thru September..?? Where ya at?!?!
Over the past year or so I've found myself having at least one drink a day. I enjoyed having a glass of wine or a beer with dinner or later on in the evening. Well, slowly, the number of drinks have increased and I can't seem to stop. I have one drink, and it feels so good to have that warm feeling that I find myself reaching for another ... and another. I don't usually get super drunk, but I like to have that buzzed feeling.
I'm afraid now, though, because I've tried to cut down. If there's any alcohol in the house (there almost always is), I will drink it even though I promise myself to take a break. Then I will promise myself just to have one drink, only to have more. I've taken the 'do you think you're an alcoholic' tests on the internet and failed. I'm afraid of what this could be doing to my body. I'm afraid of it getting worse. I just want some tips or ideas on how to stop or control my drinking.
I'm sorry not to check in ... it's nice to know people are interested. My update: I guess I've fallen off the wagon. I am drinking again, not everyday, and I'm trying to control myself. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't. I think I lasted about 3 weeks without. Then we went to visit family out of town and I had one drink over the weekend. I didn't drink for about a week. My husband went out of town last weekend and I got really wasted ... I did that alone - I looked forward to it. I don't know - I'd like to think that I can control myself ... I think I'm fooling myself. But I also think I have to be one of the dumb ones and hit my personal bottom before I really know for sure. Sounds stupid, I know. It's hard to keep the motivation going. It's hard to keep caring. And I don't want to get labeled. Excuses? Probably.
It's good to see you back and to know you're doing ok. You had the courage to come back here and be honest with us. I admire that.
That one drink over the weekend... how did that come about? How did it make you feel while you were having it? Probably a little guilty? Maybe nervous for letting your guard down? Got wasted, huh? That must have made you feel good the next day!! I admit, I fell off after a few weeks, too. The first time drinking again at first made me really wasted really fast, and the next day (of was it two?) I was certain getting so wasted was no longer for me.
You don't want to get labeled? What's wrong with "Successful"? Everyone carries labels... It depends on who you're with and what you're doing that determines your label for the moment. Hitting the bottom isn't likely to give you more motivation, nor the type of label that will make you happy.
Keep your strength and stay determined. Find an activity that keeps you busy. If you need to talk, just come in here a look for someone. We're on your side!
HI,
I was lurking on the sidelines,reading this post a few days ago,wondering where you might have gone too!
I am in recovery from drinking,AA has taught me a lot about coping skills(HOW=Hhonestly,Open minded,Wwillingness)This is the basic formula.
You have got them down,Its the drink you can't keep down(on the table...lol)
If the drinking is a problem why not look for like minded people? AA'ers,in the beginning,think that THEY are the only ones that did"THIS",or "THAT",or felt like"THIS/THAT".Do you?,do you think you'll "fit in",or is this just a passing phase in your drinking?Are you of the mind of 'It'll pass if I can just....'?
Are your fears founded,or just smoke in the wind?
MY drinking career(EX now) was founded on fear,the relief of fear,the need to fit-in,to be accepted by others,and the uncontrollable need to have a drink when I felt like it,no matter what!
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