About maybe 4 months ago i stopped smoking weed and i was doing really good.
Job hunting and everything. Started going to a commuinity college and keeping myself busy.

Then 4 months later *now* bout maybe 4 weeks ago.. I started going to this guys house accross the street and there all tweakers they do meth all day..

And occasionally i had trouble with this girl so i went over there and said

"lemme get a hit man" i need it!

i cant deal with this ****

and since then.. bout every friday i been hitting meth,

and i dont buy it.. or do it everyday..

i just notice i have been doing it alot..

every friday is bad enough for me..

im so ashamed of myself and i feel so bad about letting my parents down..
my confidence was so high and it all just seems like it fell apart..

and i feel like a loser a nobody, and i know im destroying myself..

i dont want it now... i

did it last nite also.. and it was a thrusday..

but i know im devoloping an addiction

it gets me so mad cause i quit weed to only start slowly on another addiction a worster addiction..

i wanted to hear what anybody who has a heart has to say bout this..

and maybe share any bad experiences u know of bout this drug..

im a really nice person and i know i can change and stop this non sense which is why im here

and i dont want a rehab i belive i can do it out here..

it is just kind of hard when the guy lives accross the dang street


any help?

lukeduke

Well yes it does sound like an addiction is starting and that is how it does by doing on the weekend and next thing you know its during the week also. then its every other day, which turns into every day. what you need to do first is know that it is a problem which i think you did. Its up to you all you have to do is stop going around those losers, they are pieces of shi--t and they are everywhere, ask anyone. they are not your friends because they are most likely addicted and are in misery. You ever heard the sang "misery loves company".. that is it.......stop going over there and if the call or what ever just ignore it....simple!!!!!!!!!

xHypoCondriacx

J_9

Wonderful news. We all love to hear the "good stuff" here.

Keep it up. I have been through a few tough addictions myself, though I choose not to disclose what I was addicted to. I, too, decided one day that I was done, and I have not been down that path since.

My current addiction is Pepsi, and that is not nearly as dangerous as the other addictions I suffered through. I can tell you that the Pepsi addiction is much harder to break than the "harder" stuff was for me.

Good luck and I hope you keep it up!!!

Thomas1970

Hi Hypo. I'm glad to hear things are going well. Keep it up. You definitely have a good future ahead of you.

lukeduke

Very, Very nice hypo. It is always great to hear things like this when a user has made up there mind to put a stop to using. They either move up by seeking help by any means and or just go into hiding. I dont remember your age but a GED or diploma must be achieved simply because with out one a good job and maybe nowadays any job cant not be got. If I were you I would look into getting an actual diploma. I know around where I live there was a place called 5th District, and you go there to finish getting your required credits and the Diploma given was from a the High School in the immediate area, i dont remember which one it was. I promise your future career will be better and brighter cause it is a major factor between the two.

xHypoCondriacx

thanks all once again.. its been maybe 2 weeks almost 3.. i feel great and healthy. [= i love this site and thank you all for caring. now my primary objective is to get a job ]=

later

xHypoCondriacx

Topic closed thank you all very much

Gregdoris

Seriously, I have been sober now for many, many years You are playing with fire.
Get the number for NA (Narcotics Anonymous) and call them. Someone will even pick you up and take you to your first meeting. You can not image the miracles that happen in NA. Please trust me on this.

RAMguySF

I think it is really great that you recognize that you have a potential disaster headed your way if you don't fight the desires and stay away from the people accross the street. Take it from somebody who has been addicted to meth for about ten years now. I'm fortunate to have kept it together for the most part, but have seen so many of the friends in my life not be so lucky. It is more powerful than you can imagine. Soon Friday will turn into the whole weekend, then maybe Monday just to get through the day, and Tuesday cause you are too depressed to go without it, and before long it is a daily habit. It is horrible and the biggest regret I've had in my life because I really have a difficult time in life without it now. I hope that soon I can kick the worst habit ever, and I hope you really follow your heart and don't do it anymore. TRUST ME IT AIN'T WORTH ANYTHING YOU'LL END UP GOING THRU! Good luck to you.

xHypoCondriacx

thx all, im back i was really busy for the last month or so, things are good, and ty for caring