Lately ive been hanging out with these new friends that are like 2-3 years older then me and they all smoke around me, for years ive been saying to myself "smoking is bad smoking is a disusting habit and everyone should quit!" ive even helped one of my friends quit but know every time im with them i keep thinking to myself "i really wanna go..." i will even go into shops to have a look at which ones are cheaper and more expencize but i will never buy them because i know im to young to get them, but lately i cant stop thinking about it and im even having dreams about me smoking and i really enjoy it in my dreams and i know its a disgusting habit but a part of me really just wants to grab them and just sit there smoking!!

and i will joke about it to my friends when really i know to myself im not joking.
Also lately ive been taking these paracetomal tablets to school becuase i have a stomach condition and i will end up in spaz attacks that will put me in really bad pain so ive been taking 2 every time it happens every 5 hours but lately ive been sat there thinking i should take 3 and more and more and more and i will take them every 4 ish hours instead and i mean it when i know its been like 4-5 hours i will take more even though im not in pain and my friend has noticed and she takes them off me but when i get home i just take more and more am i just being silly or should i go see a doctor??
