I'm 27, I WAS engaged and also have a daughter with my soulmate but I took that step that you are afraid to take. (she calls me a risk taker) I am now living with my mom and I cry every night because I miss her and the family atmosphere so much. You have something that I always wanted and still going to try and find and that is a family. Love your family. Don't miss out on the I LOVE YOU'S. Look your husband in the eyes, give him a hug and tell him how much you miss him. PRIDE SUCKS! Hope this helps