Also, on a related note; i'm looked at as the family's golden boy. Since a young age I was the child of the family that was looked at to succeed and go far, and get everything out of life. A doctorate, a nice huge house, you name it. It's put a lot of pressure on me, and i've had very little chances where my older siblings had plenty. It's very stressful trying to live up to something like this, especially in my current situation.