One thing I can say - you are not alone in feeling discouraged. So many people are hurting these days. I do not think you are weak - I think you are emotionally hurt and you just want the pain to stop. Many young people think that ending their life is the answer - and they are wrong. You deserve to give yourself a chance - not tell yourself you are going to kill yourself. It is already hard and then on top of it - you hurt yourself more by telling yourself you are going to kill yourself. Nothing could be more important than you - no problem is bigger than you. Give up the idea that killing yourself is the answer to life problems. What you need is re-assurance that everything is going to work out - and you need to stop being so hard on yourself. Go forward with courage and in knowing that other people will help you along the way. Seek answers, pray, ask, - and keep going.