That is exactly my theme on a day to day bases....I promise.....I look good on the outside but this situation is what plagues me on the inside. Nobody knows I have this struggle. I have people depending on me but I don't have anybody there to catch me when I fall. I thank you all for the positive advice. Once I have this one situation under control I think the working on me part will be complete (it never seems to completely be complete). I have taken time to gain; faith, healing, self-esteem, tolerence, peace of mind, respect, discipline for myself. I've been taking care of myself and my kids all by myself. This is just one main issue with myself I can't seem to accomplish.